Tarot Read ~ Feb 7

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Monday, February 07, 2005 1:52:57 PM

Question: Billie sang of hopes to fall in love when she was born into a situation—a black woman birthed in a whore-house, she anesthetized herself with heroine to be an artist-leper and died used up by chronic trauma inflicted on her, like Christ was—for no good reason. Her legacy was her writing, her recorded voice, and 50 bucks kept in her vagina. Her relics would sell in London auctions.

Horoscope Spread
14 Temperance
The female figure of the Temperance card is a reference to the Soul. She is mixing up a blend of subtle energies for the evolution of the personality. The key to meaning in this card is its title, a pun on the process of tempering metals in a forge.
Metals must undergo violent handling, extremes of temperature, endless folding and pounding, but the end product is infinitely superior to the original ore, fresh from the earth and utterly unrefined. In this image, the soul volunteers the ego for a cleansing and healing experience which may turn the personality inside-out, but which brings out the gold hidden within the heart.

1: House of Identity
When you act upon a shared vision it will have far reaching effects.
The Four of Wands in this position suggests a group is forming that shares a common vision more complete and with more potential than any vision the individuals had dreamed separately. Synergy is emerging from the group; the benefits of your serious and significant work will be felt not only in your immediate circle but throughout a wider spectrum. This group is the core social unit necessary to produce a successful business, civic project or creative endeavor.
2: House of Work
All elements are perfectly orchestrated.
When the Ten of Cups is in this position, your circumstance seems to be filled with a feeling of reunion and joyful celebration, relaxation and healing. It comes partly from being comfortably situated among your favorite people. Emotionally, this is like being at summer camp. Friends are everywhere. Cooperation and mutual support prevail. There is a wonderful sense of the whole being greater than the sum of the parts. It’s really an extraordinary achievement. Even if it can’t stay this way forever, for this moment all is right with the world and everyone knows it. We are united, joyfully at peace. What a lovely closure on the struggles and labors that have led to this fulfillment!
3: House of Ideas
Self scrutiny gives you an opportunity to review and reset your standards.
With Justice in this position, turn what could be a potential embarrassment into an opportunity to be honest, learn and grow. Let correction take place. This card is a reminder to steer your ship back to the center channel where you can move with the current, the natural flow. Chastisement is meted out only if you are greedy or, conversely, self-negating. Justice demands an appropriate investment by all participants. This is an excellent opportunity to raise your standards as well as your self esteem.
4: House of the Family
A warrior of peace is coming to the fore; the eternal seeker within you is responding to the call.
The Knight of Cups in this position suggests that it is your natural inheritance to be a pioneer. You actually strive for experiences that others only wonder about. Then you return from the front and describe new horizons of consciousness and understanding. You are a spiritual warrior, and you are striving to win the higher ground. In this situation, it is easy for you to call up the quality of energy that can send you on a crusade and numerous challenges for the sake of the greater good. Perhaps you are now being called to, or are preparing for, another great adventure of this kind.
5: House of Magic
Now is your chance to recover personal power and self esteem.
With the Eight of Cups in this position, you have been through a situation that left you feeling assaulted. You felt exhausted, overwhelmed, drained — as if a plug had been pulled within you. Take heart; because this card implies that difficult conditions are on the wane. The worst of your sadness and feelings of being overwhelmed have lifted. But you have yet to collect yourself and move forward, which is what you must do in order to fully recover. Take special care to get closure on this episode. As the future brings new influences, you don’t want to be dwelling on the past.
6: House of Apprenticeship
You have the potential to be propelled forward in an area of your life. You must persevere.
When the Three of Wands is in this position it indicates the brink of success whether it has to do with business, spiritual life or the unfolding of personal life goals. You have made an effort over time to say “yes” to life and now life is saying “yes” back. This is a rare and magical opening — a time when you can truly catch the wave. There is a potential to be the person you’ve been striving to become, even though the greatest tests are still in front of you. For one thing, you still have to demonstrate that you will persevere. You have engaged the support of your Higher Power and are practicing the art of right action in your life.
7: House of Relationships
Your heart of hearts is finally illuminating the inner ideal that has been fueling your prodigious labors.
When the Ten of Wands is in this position, you will be presented with an opportunity for reflection and perspective that will take you behind current positions and activities. You will get a glimpse of your heart’s true motivation, the real reasons you are involved in present choices and challenges. This can be a startling realization. You may be reminded of decisions made in your distant past that set you on your course to the present. You will gain perspective into the process that has shaped your personality, matured you and brought you to your present level of power and drive. When you arrive at that level of self-realization, the reasons behind the current events in your life will become clear to you.
8: House of Secrets
Ask yourself why you feel unworthy of the harmony and benevolence you need and which is abundantly available to you.
When the Ace of Cups is in this position, you are struggling with a belief that there is not enough approval to go around. You have internalized the conviction that someone has to do without; apparently you think that person is you. Although the Ace of Cups traditionally represents the fountain of love, abundance and affirmation, times of considerable deprivation cause us to act as if we are unworthy of receiving divine love or the love of others. Aggressively question your feelings of inner guilt and shame because they are preventing divine, beneficent, universal love from pouring down upon you just as it does upon everyone else. Why separate yourself from it at a time when you need it so much?
9: House of Visions
Take advantage of spiritual role models.
The High Priestess in this position points to a mentor or role model who exemplifies true objectivity. This person is skilled in the high art of intuitive receptivity. Like an undeveloped film, the High Priestess can enter a situation and take an impression of all it contains without needing to project personality into it. Such cultivated neutrality and openness to the bigger picture is the foundation of wisdom. Study this person. Develop clarity and humility in your own personality, and use these qualities to up-level all your interactions and relationships.
10: House of Reputation
Realize you are not one of the captains; concentrate instead on a role that supports and promotes the objective.
The Queen of Wands in this position reveals a need to hold your place in the chain of command and respect the hierarchy. Don’t take the helm yourself, even though you are motivated by a strong dedication to completing a task. A perceived deficiency in leadership makes you want to take control, but restrain yourself. Remain loyal to your higher-ups so that you remain focused, willful and energetic, enthusiastically attacking the challenges directly in front of you. Perform in good faith and encourage others to do the same.
11: House of the Future
As you are stimulated to assert your views, you gain valuable insight into yourself.
With the Eight of Swords in this position, you have an ability to formulate what you’ve always sensed into concepts that make sense to others. You may find yourself articulating a philosophy you’ve only known intuitively before this situation forced you to state it clearly. You could be bringing an important new realization to consciousness. Use this as an opportunity to examine all your nooks and crannies. Discover what your responses are when you are tested on your core beliefs. The self knowledge you will gain from this experience will be priceless.
12: House of Surrender
The highest response to fulfillment and abundance is to share that golden energy with others.
The Sun in this position requires that you receive with gratitude all the positive energy being directed at you. In the course of experiencing it, be sure to pass it on as unsullied as you received it. Don’t view yourself as superior to, more worthy than others. Follow the example of the sun in this card, beaming forth and shining indiscriminately on all who enter your domain. Don’t hoard the energy that flows toward you.

2:28:10 PM
Question: I wrote a question likening Billie to strong women who epitomized the vulnerable feminine—Diana, Marilyn, Judy—and, as well to the celebrated Ray Charles, wanting to know if times were ready to dignify more gentle Strength. But, you cut off the electricity to my computer. You always have a reason — perhaps for me to rephrase the question? ...
Celtic Cross

1: Self
A legacy of some kind provides a stable foundation upon which to build.
The Four of Coins in this position suggests that you have been blessed with some kind of inheritance which you are still learning how to put to good use. This endowment may be monetary or it may be some other form of generous support. It gives you a relatively stable base upon which you can build. When you are fully aware of what a blessing it is, you can cultivate a feeling of gratitude and make the best use of your advantage. On the other hand, there is a chance you will squander its value. It’s OK to be playful, but beware of irresponsible pleasure-seeking.
2: Situation
The designated leader needs your support right now, even if he or she does not yet use power objectively.
The King of Wands in this position says that a new level of authority has been assumed by someone in the environment and that person may still be getting used to this new position. Your patience and compassion can help them get their bearings. It is not in your best interests to appear competitive, so lend your support humbly. Resist the temptation to upstage this person even if it would be easy.
3: Challenges
Accepting your role in a team effort stimulates personal growth and leads to reward.
The Four of Wands in this position supports a persistent effort to be reliable and responsible. Effective teamwork sometimes depends on successfully making up for each other’s missing skills, and you are being asked to hold up your end. You have been brought on board for your expertise. While others in the group are working on their specialties, you are expected to work on yours. This creative group effort will push you, stimulate you and demand that you give more and grow more than you would on your own. When you rise to the challenge with enthusiasm, you will be richly rewarded.
4: Foundation
Although they were learned under difficult circumstances, the skills and outlook gained in the past are now proving tremendously helpful.
The Six of Swords in this position indicates an earlier life circumstance that gave you a head start on certain practical and necessary survival skills that are proving to be quite valuable. At the time it may have felt oppressive, exacting or overwhelming to be faced with this body of information, technical skill or special ability. To be held to high and exacting standards may have felt harsh at the time, but the experience has contributed tremendously to your useful abilities and self discipline in the face of challenges. Be grateful for the education you received (unwittingly or not) before you were old enough to consent to it or mature enough to appreciate it. Use your hard-won knowledge, and rejoice in having it.
5: Recent Past
Sharing common ground with another has opened many possibilities, revealed new facets of your feelings, and inspired new responses.
With the Two of Cups in this position, recent experiences of mutual recognition have touched your heart. This may have influenced your sense of priorities in surprising ways. Observe differences in your awareness, feelings and sensitivities. That which is opening within you is stimulating noble feelings. Do not fight this process nor romanticize it. Let yourself be drawn to the harmonious elements of the situation, but don’t let yourself be swept away or commit too soon. Time will show you if this is just a symbolic wake-up call, or if it’s meant to be followed up with further interaction.
6: Higher Power
Your high standards make you an excellent role model.
When the Eight of Coins is in this position, stop and admire your achievements. Through persistent effort at maintaining the highest standards of excellence, you have become a role model to others who want to follow in your footsteps. Your personal imprint and style will be recognized and acknowledged. Your refinements and improvements will be honored and duplicated for years to come. Whether this was intentional or a byproduct of your single mindedness, you have established a hallmark. All you need to do now is keep doing what you do best.
7: Near Future
The mission requires unqualified commitment to a positive outcome; be certain you are well prepared.
When the Horseman of Wands is in this position, it suggests an approaching opportunity to discharge a powerful and important duty that no unprepared person could complete. This mission requires an unqualified commitment to a positive outcome and an unequivocal willingness to do whatever it takes. If the project is a success, it confers success on whoever orchestrates the outcome; if it is not a success, and then the downfall is reflected as well. Search your soul and your conscience before you accept such an assignment, and then proceed wholeheartedly.
8: Blocks and Inhibitions
Fear is at the heart of whatever resistance or negativity you are experiencing.
The Death card in this position represents the fear of death, annihilation, oblivion, the fear that you will cease to exist. As you search your heart, you may discover that the cause of your resistance is the fear that you will be made inconsequential, that your contribution will be forgotten. Your rational mind knows this isn’t going to happen. You have lived too long and made too many moves to be so totally extinguished. But, something inside you fears being snuffed out. You must address this fear, because it’s inhibiting your willingness to take risks and act on your best interests and creative urges. It stands solidly in your way.
9: Allies
Those who hear the call of their higher selves are coming together.
The Judgment card in this position advises that you keep company with those who are shaking off their limits, and expanding their consciousness as much as their imaginations will allow. Let yourself be redeemed and reborn. Start to affiliate with those who twenty years from now will serve as influencers. They are, like you, marching to a different drummer, responding to the call for change resounding throughout the land. Those who have the ears to hear it are lifting their heads, looking around and finding each other. If you let yourself heed the call, you will experience a profound transformation.
10: Advice
Rediscover the idealism and optimism of your youth to reinvigorate your vision.
The Ten of Wands in this position advises you to remember the true, simple heart of your youth and all the idealism it held. As you reach deep into yourself and identify your purest, most wholesome impulses, try to let that optimistic and honorable self help you to see what’s good about the world. Allow yourself to look beyond the challenges, setbacks, disappointments and frustrations you tend to see so easily. As you reawaken your high minded inner child, you will refresh your daily life by looking at it with a joyful purpose and a new optimism.
11: Long-Term Potential
Don’t underestimate your capabilities or trivialize what you do.
The Three of Coins in this position indicates that over time you are going to build a body of valuable works and make quite a name for yourself. Don’t underestimate yourself or diminish the value of what you do. Give priority to nurturing and further developing your vision and skills. Only you can contribute your unique gifts, which are amazing and masterful. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain.